From the Intuitive Mind of Jan Tijmes at The John Positive Co. of Sedona, Arizona

Thoughts on Depression, Treatment, Cures, Antidepressants

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 18:21:57 -0700

Sarasota, Florida: The Coconut Bay Apartments, 2002.
An example of my day 6 years ago to explain Depression Treatment Blog:
I woke up from another night of passing out in an alcoholic blur. I had a stack of cans and bottles in the kitchen, I had 30 minutes to peel myself off the floor and drive to my engineering job. I had chest pains around my heart, my head had massive migraines, I smelt of booze, my wallet was empty, and I had to go to work pretending I wanted to be there for 9 hours. My body was crying out for help. Lunchtime acid reflux would assure me of it.

The night before I wrote a song, so I could always remember what my head felt like with depression and booze- a never-ending cycle of misery. It went like this:

Clouded Head
“I can’t get the words out quite right.
I choke on a sub-synonym,
With no sign of light.
I’m five parts upstairs,
Can’t see the end, I swear.
I beg for a good sleep to carry me through night.
I roll awake, I fight,
But I ask to die.”

Nuts, eh? We’ve come a long way. (If you click on the John Positive MySpace Link, you can listen to some higher vibration tunes of recent years.)

It was like that John Cusack quote in the movie “High Fidelity”, “Do I listen to pop music because I am miserable, or am I miserable because I listen to pop music?”

What came first, the depression or the drinking? Depression doesn’t just happen, right?

Each of us are improving all aspects of our lives on a daily basis. If you look at “compassion”, for example, on a Scale of 1 to 10, then one person may have mastered Compassion to a Level of 4, while another may have mastered it to a Level of 8. And the outward results of their life, such as quality of relationships and quality of health, would become the indicator of where they are.

Each of us are at current Levels of Happiness, Ability to Relax, Business Savviness, Generosity, Readiness for Parenting, Musical Ability, and yes, even Depression. And if thee weren’t these Levels, then we’d be always at optimal energy with no blockages whatsoever- we’d be walking souls, in complete love, health, and wisdom with a direct link to our Being.

There is a certain amount of depression in each and every one of us. Watch any television show to get a feel for how strong the base level of depression is in our country- it’s extremely high. Listen for the sarcasm, quick wit, and laughter at the expense of others. I was no exception.

It’s rare to find someone you is able to sincerely look at themselves in the mirror and say, “I love you,” or “I am a success.” It took me almost a year before I could do it without laughing. But if we learned it, then we can all unlearn it, right?

We all live with these dysfunctions until they starts to affect what we want in life and what we currently have. When your health hits a brick wall, when your relationships sour, when your boss wants to oust you, when good opportunities stop flowing your way- you start to perk those ears up wondering why the world hates you. But we are sort of to blame for those dysfunctions, aren’t we. We don’t know it yet, but we all soon will.

And it’s the same story with drinking/ drugging, insomnia, skin problems, heartburn/ acid reflux, etc...

In my life I had been living with maybe a Level 4 of baseline depression since the time I was extremely young. I would get very excited as a child (and even now), and depression always follows excitement. Only on the soul level do we move away from duality and maintain a state of joy at all times. That’s covered quite a bit in The Everyone Program. If it wasn’t being excited and depressed, I’d be confused and sympathetic to everyone else’s problems. As if I’d soak up their pain.

By the time I reaches adolescence, this depression began showing itself in many different ways, but there was no one in my family that could read into it or constructively help me. I’d find my own ways around it, like build go-carts or being silly at the expense of myself.

Everything is energy, and everything expresses a unique energy signature, such as a weakness or a strength, within our human body and mind. For example, adolescence cause the imbalance from my parent’s divorce to show it’s head as a passive-aggressive secret rebelliousness.

This energetic imbalance was in my organs, my emotional body, my thoughts, and as my impatience grew with the world, this dysfunction grew worse.

Phoenix, Promotions, & Bought a Classic Car!

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:00:58 -0700

Ok, so the Volvo 245 DL in the picture is not mine, but it gives you an idea of the Classic car I just bought. I bought a white one from a guy in Prescott, AZ who owned it for 17 years. And in all that time, it broke down 1 time and needed a new fuel pump. How’s that for old school engineering. It has a Continuous Mechanical Fuel Injection Unit that Volvo stopped making because it would not break down enough.

My ride has 313,000 miles on it, and the way it’s been cared for, and the attention to detail I give older cars, it’ll run another 200k.

The last few weeks have been a trip. I’ve taken physical trips to Phoenix, Flagstaff, Tucson, Prescott, Chino, and Camp Verde to promote The Everyone Program as well as the bi-monthly free training calls, but I’ve also taken a number of spiritual/ energetic trips. I have pushed myself beyond what I knew I could handle. Yet each day a fire under me keeps me doing it all over again. I have a vision for the energy I am working to bring into The Everyone Program which will help improve the healing and growth for the Students in the Program. So to that end, I am passionate to keep up the uncertain journey.

I went to Phoenix this past week. Wow, it was 119 degrees when I left. After a half hour of driving out of there, it had cooled down to a nice 113. The energy of the town makes me realize why I haven’t lived in a big city for many many years. When you get sensitive into what is affecting you, one realizes the strength of the collective consciousness in an area packed with people. It’s a negative energy soup, so it takes quite a bit more work on one’s part to keep their life moving forward positively. It’s no wonder that my most troubled, yet tenacious, clients come from towns like LA, Houston, Phoenix, and the like.

It’s a one week countdown to the next Free Tele-Course, and I’m excited about this one. I am doing a number of new partnerships to help market those calls. It’s rare that a person in the city gets to enjoy such a call, so whatever I can do to get more people to experience new information the better.

Tomorrow I’ll send out a Constant Contact Newsletter, then the next few days will be sent in spiritual bliss enjoying each moment and continuing on the Marketing Strategy Plan. Wednesday I head back to Phoenix for another Promotion at the James Ray Event. The coach and guest from The Secret will be hosting a free seminar on Success for 2500 guests. He’s a huge proponent of Energy, so it will be a great place to introduce folks to the form of energy I’ll be teaching in the Program via the free training calls.

From Sedona to Phoenix, I’ll be driving down in the ’75 Volvo 245DL, and that gets me all giddy. What a sweet ride it is. Under the hood you can fit a family of 4. There’s nothing in there besides the engine. And while I’m in Phoenix, I’ll stop by a guy’s place who sells electric bikes. Gonna pick up an electric scooter to scoot around Sedona in. With gas prices like these, a new electric scooter shop is even opening up in Sedona in the coming weeks. That’s gonna be awesome!

Cheers! See you on the Calls~
-Jan Tijmes

Thoughts on Sedonia, Arizonia from Jan Tijmes

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:33:05 -0700

Nestled in the 4 Corners, Sedona is a beautiful land of mystery, and this place has a lot going on for a town of only 11,000 people. Is it the homemade Kombucha and Kelly’s Raw Chocolate? Is it the wonderful year-round tourists from all over the world? Is it the day spas, hiking, resorts, and golfing? Is it the world-class healers and psychics? Not sure, but I hope to give a little insight into Sedona, by writing a few things I love about Sedonia, Arizonia.

I moved here from Durango, Colorado, one of my favorite towns in Colorado at the base of the Rocky Mountains. Heading 6 hours southeast from Durango is a little town called Sedona, within the Red Rock Wilderness Area. I first drove through here a couple years ago, and I immediately feel in love with the crisp energy I felt. Don’t get me wrong, Durango’s energy is beautiful too, but it was different. Durango has a springtime, heartfelt, young and lively energy. Even the tourist out there are the kind of people that get out of their cars and enjoy some extreme outdoor activity before heading back to the hotels at night. But Sedona is different. It is made for spiritual development, inner growth as a person, opportunity, learning, hiking, soaking it in, art, and creating.

Sedona has been nick-named “Slow-Dona” because most people are in bed by 9pm. So tourists don’t immediately understand it. Even some of the residents don’t understand it. But to me, this place is extremely fast-paced and electric. Businesses get started minutes after the ideas are conceived. Relationships sour minutes before the last fight takes place. You intuitively are always were you need to be. You come across people and situations that seem to give you the growth your soul is calling for. This is one of the most expensive towns in America, and I don’t even know how I am surviving out here. But inside, I know that the Energy (my Angels, God, the Town) wants me here, so it’s been presenting me great resources for a year now.

Each day is a blessing in Sedona. I used to be an engineer in Florida and Colorado, but leaving engineering to become a full-time spiritual healer and spiritual life-coach for clients across the nation has been the most fulfilling and rewarding decision I have ever made. It was as if the universe was calling for this all along. Puzzle pieces snap in place seamlessly each day.

I wake up at 4:15 am, hear the first birds chirp, turn on the patio pond, meditate or do different forms of energetic and physical healing exercises, work with clients throughout the day, then finish up with evening relaxation and activities. It seems that many people are in the same boat here: consciously practicing their connection to the highest Source of Energy 24 hours a day. I feel like I am aging backwards.

And for such an expensive town, it’s cool that you can still get away with rural small town ways of doing business. For example, you can still have a homemade wooden sign in the front of your business advertising your services, and it doesn’t mean you’re gonna make less money than the guy next door who spent a half million dollars on his street sign. I know some people who don’t even advertise, and customers somehow keep “showing up”. Spiritual laws matter more than left-brained laws here.

And when I’m hiking or grabbing a yerba mate at the RavenHeart next to New Frontiers in the Old Marketplace in West Sedona, I always bump into an open person who wants to relax for a moment and talk about life. And 9 times out of 10, we usually have some service we end up being able to provide one another. I have been offered more jobs by bumping into someone on a hiking trail than I know what to do with- all because a person enjoyed my personality.

That’s another funny thing about Sedona. She has deep pockets with all the resorts, developments, and retirees. And professional beings are not a dime a dozen. We’re worth more like a dollar a dozen. So if you know how to relate to people, and you have a sales, teaching, accounting, engineering, bookkeeping, managerial, or any talented background, chances are, you will be the next CEO of the latest non-profit in Sedona. It never fails that if I ask for something, whether it be money, friends, confidence, solitude, a mechanic, food, it finds me within hours of my request. And that’s what’s cool about Sedona. But wait, there’s more!

I already mentioned the hiking, so let’s bring that up again. Most tourist pass through town and do the obvious things they see with their eyes- Pink Jeep Tours, walking Uptown shopping areas, taking pictures of Bell Rock. But if that’s all you get to do while in Sedona, shame on you cause that’s not even scratching the surface. Try the fact that the Grand Canyon is an hour and a half from here, you can kayak 10 minutes away from town, you can ski 45 minutes away, Jerome is a cute, ghost town overlooking the whole Sedona valley with incredible art, the nature you can photograph is world-class, Page Springs has the most magical healing waters in all of Arizona with a beautiful bird sanctuary and wineries to walk around, Williams has a tremendous train ride, the Village of Oak Creek is surrounded by incredible hiking, like Bell Rock, Cathedral Rock, Oak Creek, Baldwin Mountain, el Bufe, Courthouse Butte, and not to mention Beaver Creek’s 11 mile loop. And back in Sedona, it has around 40 miles of hiking trails that are some of the coolest in the world. The hiking trails a just a few feet away from any parking spot in town.

Munds Wilderness tops the list. Oh wait, Bear Mountain tops the list. Oh wait, Thunder Mountain tops the list. You get the point? Smell the mountain flowers, get out of the car, talk to a juniper, roll the soft red sand in between your hands, then rub it all over your face as if it was rouge makeup, smell the sap oozing from the pines, make friends with the other tourists, and breathe heavily the fresh mountain air. Take a drive up Oak Creek Canyon and stop at any roadside parking spot and just walk. Where? It doesn’t matter. Walk for 2 hours. Get out of your head, and feel the life all around you. Feel the smile begin to take you over. Feel your heart connect to some of the sweetest landscape across America. Oak Creek is like a lush, tropical rain forest in parts. There’s also Slide Rock, where you can bask in the sun on a rock in the middle of the creek and slide off the rock into the cool waters below. And if it’s all too woo-woo for you, head north half an hour to Flagstaff, where the energy will ground you with a Rockies’ mountain-town vibe.

Oooh, and I never mentioned the Vortexes! Even though I can’t feel them in each location, I can feel the speed of things throughout the whole town. There’s the Airport Vortex, the Boynton Canyon Vortex, the Bell Rock Vortex, the Cathedral Rock Vortex, and the town itself is alive in its own energetic way. Walk around and don’t talk. Just don’t talk or judge anything. Soon a pleasure-filled feeling overcomes you as you realize you are walking through a town that’s talking to your soul each step you take.

There is lots to do here, and it makes me smile when parents tell me that their children are bored. I grew up in central Houston, and I assure you that Sedona has a lot to do if you get out of your mind and into your heart. But that’s the same anywhere you are in the world. You gotta get creative and work with the soul level!

So I saved the best for last, and that’s Personal Development. Development of your soul, your mind, your body. Sedona is home to some of the best body-work, massages, angel healers, psychics (please use your discernment, cause I can’t vouch for many of them), energy trainers, yoga masters, teachers, spiritual development classes, Shamans, retreat centers, meditation retreats, and weekend excursions in the world. You ask for it, then it’s here! I have “lost myself” over and over again in this town, that I’m starting to not apologize to anyone anymore for not knowing my name when I’m asked.

Some weeks you’re in a cloudy haze as you’re releasing old blocked energy that you have no use for anymore. Then other weeks you’re at the top of you’re A-Game, enjoying the new body and spiritual connection you’ve attained. And this town supports either place you’re in. It’s not uncommon that friends come visit me and burst out crying for no apparent reason within a few days of being here. Sedona seems to nourish your soul and remove any unwanted energy from you.

If you are looking for a Teacher, ready for a life-changing experience, searching for your heart, or just ready to take some fabulous pictures, then Sedona has the answers. In the past year, I have searched for teachers to smooth out my erratic inner energy, to heal my liver, to open my meridians, to rid my head of negative beings, to heal me in any capacity. And I have found them each time. And I am finally at a place where I am finding the answers within me.

That’s a happy day, you know? It’s neat to attend a class and work one-on-one with someone, but you do that so that one day you will have the strength to do the work on your own. Granted, a deep tune-up from someone higher on the development scale than you is always nice from time to time. But I am finally looking inside myself. Finally feeling and conversing with my Angels more. Finally being able to differentiate between Truth and Illusion more. Finally becoming more present and out of my mind. Finally giving advice that isn’t coming from me, but rather, from a higher source of wisdom that my soul is connecting to. Finally “knowing” God. Finally working on projects that are intended to further the consciousness of mankind.

It’s all so beautiful, isn’t it. I don’t know how long I will live here. But for now, Sedonia satisfies all of my life goals. I am learning leadership skills that are satisfying me to the deepest level of my Being, because I love guiding others to their goals. Everything I learn, I do it so that I may help others who have similar issues. I adore seeing people’s lives go from a mediocre existence to full-fledged empowerment in just a few short months. How perfect is that!?

If you’re ever in town and want a tour, a guided hike, a spiritual session, or just to grab a Mountain-High Vortex Chai, look me up! I will be here with smiles on.

I love you, and God bless you each day,
Jan Tijmes

Timothy Treadwill: I was this Grizzly, now I’ve Returned to Help

Sun, 2 Mar 2008 21:44:45 -0700

I just got done watching Werner Herzog’s Grizzly Man. My head now has a certain shooting pain and remembrance for that time in my life. I know for a fact that the exact energy that made up Timothy Treadwill’s spirit (born Timothy William Dexter) is the energy that made me up way back when. The only difference was that I am now a few thousand years older in soul age, and therefore, a little wiser. My heart fell into the screen for him, because it was me. The great thing I can say is that one day he is going to be an incredible leader. Wow, what caring energy.
Look at your current life- the body you are in right now. In your childhood years, you needed the most amount of direction, your energy was the “wiliest”, and you probably didn’t know of anyone who can best help you with how things are chemically changing in your body. This childhood can best be described as the first few thousand years of your life, depending on how fast you learn. The middle years of your lifetime can best be characterized by the next few thousand years, and the later years are best characterized by the last few thousand years, before you master your energy and return to God purity forever.
Timothy Treadwill was in the “childhood” of his soul lifetime. And that’s how I know I was him. I remember those days. Your growth is not linear. If you die a master in this lifetime, you aren’t reborn a master in the next. However, if you have the right guidance and direction, you have a greater chance of reaching that master status again, because it’s engrained in your soul energy.
Like Jesus Christ said, “Forgive them, for they know not what they do.” That’s how I can keep moving forward each and every day when somebody laughs at me. I can forgive Timothy, and I can forgive those who talked down on him or thought his life was a tragedy. He lived more than most people live in this world, and that’s beautiful! He was alive, awake, and mastering the unified field theory of God that is “Fully Awake Within Itself”.
5000 years ago, I was a child. Or was I? What had I learned? I can’t tell you yet, because I am entering this stage of my life right now. Now in my 30’s I am able to better feel the levels of mastery I had achieved in previous lifetimes. Only now! Now that the tumultuous years of my childhood, adolescence, and later 20’s have vanished. These days, it’s Saturn Return fast-paced, and things are changing for the better daily. It’s awesome!
Watching Timothy Treadwill yell at the camera about his anger for the Park Service or his anger for someone’s incompetency in their job, well, all I can do is be patient and loving towards him. He yelled that anger at the age of about 46. Had he been any farther along in his soul’s development, he wouldn’t have been saying those things. Again, I only have compassion for him.
There isn’t much help for that type of person in this world. There wasn’t any help for me. I felt alone as a child. I created my own hell, so to speak. I was part of things, part of family trips, part of social scenes, yet, I wasn’t. I’d often find a corner to drift into and sink back into my world of fantasy and spirit. The next few years I spent drowning myself in alcohol and drugs, just like Timothy. It wasn’t until I was 28 that my angels finally woke me up hard with a $145,000 car accident and said, “Don’t you know who you are!? Don’t you know what you’ve achieved in past lifetimes?! Dude, wake up! You’re so past this stage! You didn’t come back for this!”
And from that day forward, I began to remember.
Timothy will get there too. What a powerful, influential, and caring soul. So lost that he doubted God, so lost that he thought everything in this world was physical, that reality was what we see with our eyes. You CAN control the rain :) When he returned to his spiritual dimension after his death, I know he was given a HUGE bear hug (I just had to say that), and greeted with such love and compassion.
Had he continued on this planet in that body, it wouldn’t have been a bear that would have killed him. It would have been a rifle. Then what would you all have said about his death?
I am a teacher, a spiritual healer. And I am here to tell the world that there are others like you and me that are out there! I will scream it from the mountaintops with purest love if I have to! You don’t have to suffer. You don’t have to learn through pain. You don’t have to learn through struggle and hardships. Only our current evolution of society has inadvertently created that form of learning. But some day soon, I hope we can all be raised with love and understanding, to take the fear out of us at an early age, so we are left to roam this world and develop as pure souls to our heart’s content.
A parallel universe of Timothy’s life would have had him out there with the bears doing exactly what he was doing the last decade of his life. Only, he would have never learned any hatred towards other humans, he would have been raised with love, he would have been supported by humanity to live out there in the wild with big animals, he would have chosen to live there not as an escape, and he would have left this earth with a smile in his heart- love for all of creation.
I read an interesting book on Patanjali’s teachings the other day. The foreword was written by Swami Vivekananda, and he talks a little about Karma. He says that anything you throw out, comes back because everything is circular, not linear. That if you throw anger out or throw a ball from your hand, if you wait long enough and are given the right conditions, that anger or ball will seemingly travel linearly, until it actually follows the curvature of the earth, and then lands right back inside you. I hadn’t ever thought of it like that…
As it stands, Timothy must come back now and face all of the anger and negativity he put out there. I had to do the same, as I am still doing today. And when I find him on this earth in this lifetime, I will take him under my wing and raise him with the love he needs to be the leader that I know he will become.
My heart goes out to you, wherever you are. You’re alright. You were made of an incredible mix of God’s energy. You are perfect. You just require a different manual than what everyone else has been raised on. No sweat, dude, I love you, and you're gonna rock this world in the future :)
-Jan Tijmes

When Love Finds You: Sedona, AZ in the Winter/Springtime, 2008

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 21:29:58 -0700

It was December 2005, and I had not dated someone in almost 1-1/2 years. I had taken some time off to find myself- my true authentic self. After a major car accident in June, 2005, I spent a lot of time alone to better understand my place in this world. By December, I was ready to open up to love again, so I asked God for a girlfriend. I mean I asked for the exact things that I was looking for as if I were placing an order at McDonald’s. And 3 weeks later, while visiting family back in Texas, I found her. She was everything that I was looking for, hand delivered by my angels.

We dated for a year and a half, during the deepest transition of my life. In this transition, I would excel at personal development, move into spiritual, psychic, energy, and healing development, then leave my engineering career behind to pursue this new-found love with the Heavenly planes. I set foot into a new reality based in truth, peace, health, love, and God. It was also extremely personal (that’s why it’s called personal development , and in the end, it proved to be too trying for the relationship. By late 2007, my life vision became so clear that we both realized we would be better apart. We had different dreams and visions for what our lives would look like long-term. So just as soon as it all started, it ended.

Of course, with that came the transition back into bachelor life. But once we decided to move on and no longer be intimate, things began to change for the better. It’s like what Joel Osteen says about making sure one door is completely closed before the next one can open for you… All my dreams began to kick into full gear once we both closed that door completely.

I spent almost 3 months defining and working on my new role as a life-coach and spiritual healer, still unsure how it would all look like. But I kept moving forward as if God was leading the way with a bright flashlight in the dark. One day, I began talking to God out loud about what I wanted to achieve in this lifetime for the world. This was not a normal prayer, it felt much more intense.

I felt as though I were speaking to the world as its leader, and I felt the world listening. I spoke to God about wanting to bring nations together, bring peace to the hearts of every man, woman, and child, to ring in a new world of healers that provided healing and peace for all of creation.

I felt like the Dalai Lama, Bono, and the leader of the free world all rolled up into one. I felt so pure with my intentions that I asked for the power to achieve this dream. If you have studied destiny and energy, then you have a good understanding of where this request lies in the hierarchy of life on earth- it’s pretty high up there.

Within days of asking for this power, things began to really change in my life. The more light that came to me, the more darkness also began attacking me. Fortunately, I have a teacher who is very skilled at fighting off this inter-dimensional darkness, and the two of us weathered through this period and came out stronger for it. I mean, look at this request I was asking for. Imagine Jesus Christ being the President of the United States! Intuitive and healing abilities mixed with truthful and compassionate leadership have never been seen on this planet in 16.4 billion years!

So just as I was settling into some new energy in my life, she finds me. But is she the one?

I work part time as a bookkeeper while I spend the majority of the hours in a week in spiritual and energetic development to ready for my new career. One day while invoicing clients, the accountant for one of our clients began emailing me- all because she liked my vibe.

I had told God to hold off on the relationships for another few months, because I was just settling into this new energy as an intuitive and healer. And just to make my decision firm, I had even vowed an oath of celibacy so I wouldn’t mix my energy with anyone until I had settled into it more confidently.

Oooh, I’ll rewind 3 months. In November 2007, I was visiting a spiritual counselor in Durango, CO named Beverly Anderson. I have yet to meet an intuitive/ psychic/ healer that is more on the mark with a positive and accurate message. I’ve been hangin’ with her for about a year and a half, and during this November session, Beverly breathed into my face the image of the woman I would end up with.

The image I received was incredible. A thin, Spanish woman with long brown hair, side-profiled in a red dress placing something back onto a shelf at an outdoor market. I could smell her, I could feel her. I was told that she would be very creative, very feminine, and at home with me anywhere in the world. Boy, I couldn’t wait to meet her! Then again, was I realistically ready? Ok, fast forward again 3 months…

It’s February 2008, and I can’t shake this accountant girl from me. She calls, emails, sends me nice gifts in the mail- all after 2 weeks of knowing her. She has a past of someone I could admire. She’s loyal, creative, adventurous, silly, caring, health conscious, has tan Spanish skin, owns a red dress, likes to travel, open to becoming a better person. Heck, I even got really honest and told her some of the interesting psychic things that have been occurring to me, and she hasn’t batted an eye.

Her potential seems really big, so maybe she’s interested in beginning some personal development and life-coach exercises to expand herself into her potential. So long as a solid foundation is in place, a beautiful life, home, and career can be built. And this girl has a solid foundation.

Love has found me. It’s banging on my door, even though I told my angels to wait another few months… Hey, you can’t expect miracles . I wonder where this is leading. Such is the joy of life- not knowing. The journey keeps us on fire and in love. Let go and let God.

I thank you, God,
Jan Tijmes